(Review taken from my Letterboxd)
A friend of mine recently sent a post, a week or two ago, of an old crush I had way back in highschool. It has been two years since, but a rush of memories and the reminder of my old “letters” came back to me. The many times I thought about them and sometimes stumbled upon them while scrolling through my social media, but slowly it faded away. But when he sent that post, everything rushed back into me and reminded me of that longing for someone. That desperate trying to be with them yet you’re a fingertip away, never able to follow through.
And it’s that longing that haunts me.
My closest friend went away after highschool and now they’re in a different part of the world. But the conversations we had, the personal moments and the memorable times spent with each other is something I cherish forever. That time of my life was something that I look back fondly on but once they went away, it hasn’t felt the same after that. There really isn’t going to be anyone like them and I’ve tried to find someone like them, yet it doesn’t feel the same. And the more time has passed, the more I miss them.
And again, it’s that longing that haunts me and what I miss the most.
Queer is now such a special film for me. Going into it, I knew that it would explore the complexity of love, yet I was enthralled by the mystique of it all. The quiet times that let you rest up to those surreal moments that leave you just in awe of what is happening on the screen. And especially THAT scene near the end, what a shot. But through it all, it explores the longing for a lover that was to be. A person that felt so right yet it wasn’t the right time. And the passing of time that leaves you longing for it again.
Luca Guadagnino created a crazy, sometimes outright scary and surreal film that I haven’t seen from Luca ever. (Maybe Suspiria, but I haven’t watched it yet) And the way he films bodies in such an intimate yet unique way is incredibly breathtaking to see. Luca’s shots of various body parts are the equivalent to Bresson’s work with hands and Bergman with his work with faces.
It’s a testament to why Luca is one of the most important directors working today and why he is one of my favorite directors of all time.
Luca, I love you man.
(plus that Sinhead O’Connor cover of all apologies is amazing!!!!)
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